my boys

They fell asleep while watching tv last night.

our trip to Memphis

Benji had depositions in Memphis this week, so we went with him. We stayed at the Peabody Hotel. It was neat to see the ducks and learn the history of the hotel. While we were there we ate some awesome ribs and sausage from Rendevous. I also bought an $8 strawberry margarita on Beale street that was strong enough to knock an elephant out.
the day he FINALLY took a nap!

on the rooftop of the Peabody hotel...going to see the ducks

family shot...self timer...facing the sun...

all the kiddos

We had Grant, Gavin, Myles and Jessica's two girls Aubrey and Charlotte over the other night to play in the water. They had a blast outside! Afterwards we gave them all showers, fed them and then got them ready for bed. I think the kids (and the moms) slept good that night

Crazy boys...

Benji has been out of town this week, so Melody and the boys came up to stay. Gavin and Grant have actually been playing in Grant's room a good bit of today. It's so nice to have some quiet time. Don't get me wrong, I love watching him play, but sometimes quiet is good too.

It's been a week since we found out the babies passed away. I have felt so anxious and sad all day. I keep telling myself that it will get better with time. I know that it will. It has too. I know that God will bless us again very soon...hopefully with twins again, but just healthy is all I really want. I know it's crazy to want twins again. I never thought I really wanted them, but after learning we were going to have them we both started really getting excited about a twin pregnancy. I would love to feel that excitement again.

this really sucks...

OK, I decided I'm going to use this as a way of getting all my feelings out...kind of like a therapy I guess. I'm passed the point of sad. I'm mad. I'm mad that I'll never get to know if our babies were boys or girls. I'm mad that I'll never get to feel them move, get to hold them, get to hear their voices, or watch them grow. I'm mad that Grant will never know them. I don't understand why God would allow us to get pregnant with twins and then take them away from us. It seems so cruel. I know I'll get past this, but for now it just hurts so bad. We have a follow up appointment with my doctor on the 8th. I'm hoping that he will have some information about what he thinks maybe happened...anything for us to know and try to help understand what went wrong. Please keep us in your prayers. I need patience and peace and understanding. I need to know how to cope with this. I hate that this is the second time we've lost a pregnancy. I hate that we have to feel this loss again. It's not fair.

our twins passed away

During our second obgyn appt. today we saw on ultrasound that both our babies passed away. The doctor said that when it happens in the first trimester there are tons of reasons why, but they are all based around the development of the babies. Something went wrong during their growing process and so it stopped. I will be having a d&c in the morning. Please keep us in your prayers as we go through this difficult time.

playing at the pool

I decided to take Grant to our gym pool today. This is the first time he's been to this pool this summer. He had a good time and we stayed there almost 2 hours!! He didn't want to leave!

we are back...

We had a great time in the Caymans!!! It was nice to get away, relax on the beach...and eat pretty much all day long!! Benji and I swam with the string rays our last day there. And luckily the tropical wave that passed right over us (which is now category 2 hurricane dolly) only gave us one day of rain. Every other day was nice and sunny!

from the plane going to the Caymans...

the carnage that was Lobster tails

afternoon storm through foggy lens...

our view from the porch of the condo...

viewing the beach...

Just a quick update...

Benji and I are getting ready to leave for the Cayman's! I'm excited, but really sad to leave Grant for so long. He'll be with Nana and Papaw (my parents) Monday through Saturday and then at Grammi's (Moni's) from Saturday to Tuesday. Knowing that there are twins on the way gave me a little extra boost to get excited about the trip. This will probably be our last kid free vacation for a while. :)

We'll be sure to post pictures and an update once we get back.

BTW, the twins will be 10 weeks tomorrow!!! Only 1 week and 4 days until we see them again!

expecting baby #2 AND #3

June 28, 2008

We had a HUGE surprise today when we went to the doctor. A little over a month ago we found out I was pregnant. We decided not to tell everybody until we went to the doctor and made sure everything was ok...well, everything WAS ok...times TWO!!! At this time the things we know about the babies are:

1. They both measure the same age - which was 7 weeks and 3 days on June 28.

2. Twin A, which was located on my right, had a heart rate of 146 beats per minute.

3. Twin B, which was located on my left, had a heart rate of 167 beats per minute.

4. They seem to be in seperate sacs...although that doesn't mean they couldn't be identical.

We will see them again on July 24 and we can't wait!! If they are growing as they should be, they should actually look like little babies and should measure 11 weeks and 3 days. Everything has gone perfectly with my pregnancy so far. Please keep the babies in your prayers. On July 24 I will only be a few days away from my second trimester. If the babies measure as they should on that day we should be good to go for the remainder of the pregnancy.

saying hi to daddy!

June 23, 2008

Benji has been gone for about 3 weeks now for work...so we decided to send him a picture to say hi!

Melody, Gavin and Myles visit

June 17, 2008
Melody, Gavin and Myles came to visit for a few days. Luckily Melody brought her clippers because Grant was badly in need of a haircut! He actually did really well.

Gavin was supervising...

we also caught Myles' first smile on camera...

Big boo-boo!

June 12, 2008
I got a call from Mother's Day Out today. They told me that Grant had fallen during playtime and bumped his head and they wanted me to come look at it. Well, I figured it was bad since they called...but I didn't expect it to be THIS bad!! He didn't even cry when he hit his head.

Weekend at Papaw and Nana's house

Since Benji was headed to Dallas for a few days, we decided to go visit Nana and Papaw. Grant and Gavin are playing so well together these days! They both LOVE to be outside...and luckily their yard is great on days that are really hot.

seesu (horsey!!)

That's what Grant calls horses...seesus!! About a week ago he started pushing us down and saying seesu...he loves this!!
"seesu, dada, seesu"...

daddy obliges...

and a few more shots of Myles...

by the water...

so cozy...

deck baby...

myles first photo session with his aunt ashly...

I had lots of fun with an actual newborn...and a fun picture
adoring daddy...

daddy's shoulders are so comforting...

nothing so safe as a father's arms...

and to mix it up a bit...anyone feeling dizzy???

a little ROCK BAND anyone??

For our SS social last month we met over at the Horton's house for a little food and ROCK BAND!!! Since this get together, our class has had two other's and each one has included the same game!
learning the rules...

benji rooting them on...(there was no encore for his performance...love ya babe!)

Diaper head!!!

I was on the computer when I heard Grant giggling and saying 'hat'...I looked over and this is what I saw...

Welcome the newest member of my family...

my new nephew Myles!! He was born 4-20-08 and weighed in a 7 pounds, 15 ounces. He's such a little cutie!!
only a few hours old...

already smiling...

proud daddy and big bother...

Expert spoon user...

Grant has figured out how to successfully use the spoon!! He gobbled up his cereal this morning!!! He is getting too big too fast!! His 4 month checkup with his eye doctor is this Friday. We'll be sure to update everybody. This is the same doctor that told us he needed glasses. (I just noticed that all the pictures of Grant on this blog show him without his glasses...he does wear them almost all day every day).

ICE CREAM!!!

So, we got this ice cream maker ball for Christmas. I opened it last night for the first time to use it...instead of having TWO lids, it only had one. Like every other good Southern knows to do, we brought out the ducktape and made our OWN lid!!

Step 1 - take ghetto rigged ice cream ball and roll and roll...etc.

Step 2 - remove ducktape to reveal ice cream

Step 3 - Serve with homemade apple pie

Step 4 - ENJOY!!

Dreamin' big...

That's what I think of when I see this picture...he loves being outside and he LOVES basketball. He'll get the ball in his hands and then back up to you so that you can pick him up to the rim and drop the ball in. I'm not tall enough, but Daddy is just right. He calls basketball...baball. It's so cute! He's also doing much better from last week. The blisters on his hands and in his mouth are gone...but the ones on his feet are still there. Surprisingly they don't seem to bother him.

poor sick little man...

this is what is called Hand, Foot and Mouth disease or more affectionately "Hoof and Mouth disease." Nice. It's highly contagious among children and takes about a week to go away. He hasn't had much of an appetite all week. Then on Thursday he had a fever of 105.0...it went away rather quickly so we thought we were in the clear. Well, Friday morning he woke up with a spot under his lip, and then Saturday morning there was another one. After doing more inspection we found his entire mouth, including his tongue was covered in these red raised spots. Last night spots started showing up on his hands and feet...needless to say he's not feeling his best, but he's doing good. The best part is there is absolutely nothing we can do other than give him Motrin and Maalox (gross, but it coats the spots in his mouth and throat to make them feel better). He's such a little trooper!

the night the sirens went off...

Benji and I were watching Dancing With The Stars Monday night and we kept seeing this severe weather warning at the top left of our screen. Since the weather seemed fine we really didn't pay it too much attention...THEN the tornado siren went off. I ran over to the computer to check weather.com and this is what I saw...

uh, yeah...scary! So, we got in the hallway, woke Grant up and put both Macy and Murphy in the crate and just waited for it to pass. We had strong wind and dime sized hail and that was it. Just a few miles down the road, the storm dropped golf ball and baseball sized hail. Thank goodness we missed that part. The last bad hail storm that came to town got our roof (had to have it replaced) and both of our cars (had to be fixed).

Benji's latest investment...

a Texas A&M yearbook from 1895...also known as the Olio. It's the first yearbook Texas A&M printed and it's 1 of only 8 other known yearbooks from 1895. Even though I'm not an Aggie, it is a pretty cool book. It's amazing to see something that was published over 100 years ago. It sits on the highest shelf in our house so that little hands don't get ahold of it. :)

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the new SWINGSET...

Benji put in about 10 hours building this swingset, but Grant thinks it was well worth it! He spent all day yesterday outside climbing and sliding!!